Look at this photograph Everytime I do it makes me laugh How did our eyes get so red And what the hell is on Joey's head
And this is where I grew up I think the present owner fixed it up I never knew we'd ever went without The second floor is hard for sneaking out
And this is where I went to school Most of the time had better things to do Criminal record says I broke in twice I must have done it half a dozen times
I wonder if It's too late Should i go back and try to graduate Life's better now then it was back then If I was them I wouldn't let me in
Oh oh oh Oh god I
Every memory of looking out the back door I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor It's hard to say it, time to say it Goodbye, goodbye
Every memory of walking out the front door I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for It's hard to say it, time to say it Goodbye, goodbye
Remember the old arcade Blew every dollar that we ever made The cops hated us hangin' out They say somebody went and burned it down
We used to listen to the radio And sing along with every song we know We said someday we'd find out how it feels To sing to more than just the steering wheel
Kim's the first girl I kissed I was so nervous that I nearly missed She's had a couple of kids since then I haven't seen her since god knows when
Oh oh oh Oh god I
Every memory of looking out the back door I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor It's hard to say it, time to say it Goodbye, goodbye
Every memory of walking out the front door I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for It's hard to say it, time to say it Goodbye, goodbye
I miss that town I miss the faces You can't erase You can't replace it I miss it now I can't believe it
So hard to stay Too hard to leave it
If I could I relive those days I know the one thing that would never change
Every memory of looking out the back door I had the photo album spread out on my bedroom floor It's hard to say it, time to say it Goodbye, goodbye
Every memory of walking out the front door I found the photo of the friend that I was looking for It's hard to say it, time to say it Goodbye, goodbye
Look at this photograph Everytime I do it makes me laugh Everytime I do it makes me
May Be When Sumday ill Reach My Aims And Goals Ill Be Writing A Song Like That!!
Dis post has no purpose… however it doesn’t mean u dun read it. =P wat I mean is dat I usually write a post when there’s sumthn I really wanna share…but again dis doesn’t mean that the things m writing abhi (I mean typing) are useless. Nothing is useless in dis world… everything has a purpose… well except this post. =P=P
Neways somewhere deep I do believe even dis post has a purpose… *thinks*…
*a bulb lightens near my head* I knw! I knw! The purpose of this post is to share sumthn with u… errrr… like all my other posts… *confused*
Ok lemme think … I should hav sum purpose of writing (typing) right now…
Yay! I knw nw!! I am writing this post cz im tired…and I dun want to study today… I actually tried to learn the heart but it’s so difficult … =( words like conus arteriosus, musculi pectinati, trabeculae carneae are making me go nuts… Luk!! even da dictionary of my Microsoft Word doesn’t even knw them and its given wavy red lines under these words like my teachers in school used to give on my copies when I made spelling mistakes… wait I should add these words to the dictionaryincase I hav to use them again.. =P *right clicks on every word and adds it to dictionary*.
Neways where was I? Yeah m tired, and a bit bored. Ive did all my Sunday morning chores. I helped dad make breakfast cz mom had to go to clinic really early in da morning to help sumone become a mommy… (my moms a gynecologist). I have made the beds, ive washed the dishes, cleaned the kitchen… OMG im such a good girl, ive done ALL these things by myself… WOW!
Ive not seen my mom since the morning and I miss her badly. She will be home soon InshALLAH and then ill give her a BIG BEAR HUG and loads of kisses. (she really gets irritated when I do that and says, “You are a big girl now, stop acting like a twelve year old” but I continue ignoring her remarks =D). The thing is I am “unconditionally and irrevocably in love with her”… yeah now all the twilight fans will recognize the lines and understand my affection for my mom (and vampires) but who doesn’t love their moms like that… every1 does… U knw wat… I love my mom and dad more than Bella loves Edward and vice versa no matter how much Stephanie Mayer insists. (in your face Mayer…!!) *evil laugh*
Well… coming to the twelve year old part… All my friends believe im a twelve year old especially Reebie cz she even tagged me on a picture which said that. The reason for that is im sometimes slow to get a joke or indirect hints they try to give me, and when I ask them to tell me in simple words they laugh at me *sad* “Tiger ur such a kid”.
“Simple words”… now tell me what is wrong if I hav to know sumthing in simple language?? I always ask JB to explain me my study related queries in simple words (which he always does in both ways the easy and the difficult =D), I want jokes to know in simple words and I hate it when I couldn’t catch the indirect hints my friends throw.
Im dumb… right? *very sad*
Neways…
My midterm is on 9th and I dunno how I will give it… Physiology is soooooooo lengthy, and anatomy sux BIG TIME, and embryo sux BIGGER time and Biochem sux the BIGGEST time.
This doesn’t mean that I think Im in the wrong field though, I wanted to be a doc since I was in class five (impressive na??) , before that I wanted to be a teacher… I’ll tell you why… in my school the teachers used to write on the white boards with the lovely markers, I loved the part that they could be erased and then they would write on it again and again (FUN). But then I was SHOCKED to find out that there are no white boards in most of the schools, meaning NO board markers and no erasing and rewriting again… (Haww…). In other schools instead of the wonderful white were lame black boards and teachers wrote on them with a chalk which to me was NO FUN… so then I decided that I will become a doctor!! (not so impressive eh?? =P =P).
Acha.. now ill save more of my purposeless yet purposeful talk for the next time… I should make sum cold squash for my mommy *im a good girl*… ive a feeling that she’s about to reach. And its so HOT nowadays that I know she will b hoping for something chilled to drink…then we all will hav lunch and then ill pray and then ill sleep probably and then ill wake up and then… OKAY ENUFFFF!!
Well. Writing this post m having mixed feelings. Yesterday Reebie’s sis told me that a person can be in four moods.
1. Happy Happy 2. Happy Sad 3. Sad Happy 4. Sad Sad
And I can’t understand which one of them im in right now, *sigh*… so ill let u know individually about my mood in few words… and since I really enjoy watching cooking channels on teevee ill explain it to you in a chef’s manner. Wotsay?? *yay* =)
So here goes.
First you hav to take around 1 cup of red happy happy feeling *big smile* and sieve it in a strainer until the extra chunks of happy goes away and its light red… WAIT!!! *scream* DON’T throw the sieved happy in da DUST BIN!!! since we are going to need later =). Now, add 1 spoon of shocking pink lovey crush feeling *giggles*, 1 spoon of the silver groove *oh yeah*, and let’s not forget 3/4th cup of white hoppy springy feeling *jumps up and down*… Now beat the mixture while humming the tune of your fav song until its smooth glittery and PINK!! *yum*
In another bowl mix a bit liquid frustration *aarrgh* and condensed boredom *=|*. Shake. Then add a pinch of anxiety *=S* and blend it into a blender for 2 minutes. *zhoomm*
Finally mix both the mixtures and bake for 20mins. See that the top layer should me giggly golden brown. =)
For garnish: laughing strawberry chunks =D, lazy whipped cream *=$* and mischievous choco chips *evil grin*… and NOT to forget my secret ingredient the red happy chunks which v saved. =)
So dats wat m I feeling, now u can understand why I can’t fit myself in any of those four moods, cz its like I have all the moods in me and I can’t figure out which one to express when and where.
That happens to me almost every single day infact every single moment… and the mood which usually dominates depends on the person or the company im in at that moment. And since write now m alone, sitting in my purple room with da love of my life (dun get the wrong idea guys… it’s my laptop) im containing in me all these emotions…!
Listen! I think I hear my stomach grumbling and the rats in it getting ready for a marathon… which adds a new ingredient in my mood recipe.. HUNGER (lol!) and now before it dominates and turns into a big angry monster and ruins my lovely garnish I better leave and hav my lunch!! =P =D
Today I am having a stomachache… no I dun hav any gastric problem and ive not been eating any unhygienic stuff like sum days back… It’s a stomachache a I usually hav when I feel guilty… like ive done something wrong… and after a lot of thinking ive found out the reason behind it, well, actually not a lot of thinking it was obvious and im feeling terribly badly horribly sorry and im disappointed in myself.
For u awl to know wat the hell im blabbering about u first should know bout my pals, buddies and my best friends at uni.
So now I present to you my best friends.
Methionine
She is the mature one, the best part is that she’s fat =P. One of my oldest frnd from school… ive known her since I was in my first grade… and nw after all the years we are still together and hopefully will always be.
Bromine
She’s the sweet one, the best part is when she laughs her cheeks get so red and it luks so cute. I found her in a uni in which I only went for a week, we were both loners there and I wanted her to be my friend, the first time I saw her, and fortunately I became her frnd and v both got transferred to this uni where I met the rest.
HB
She’s an adorable and fun loving very much like me. The best part is that she is like a-choti-si-aunti. (u wont get that bt neway =P) V became frnds in the starting days of the new uni through Methionine as she already knew her frm college, once she was sitting alone trying to study anatomy and v called her over and she’s with us ever since.
Sulphur aka Rindy
Sulphur is the most lovable creative and innocent girl ive ever met. The best part bout her is her imagination. We found her besides the canteen… She loves to have sumthn in her mouth every moment but she’s not fat. =) I share many common things with her and u’ll get to knw soon.
Reebie
Reebie is the intelligent and the interesting one. The best part bout her is her long list of her crushes. I found her in Ma’am Naheeds class. She always wants to hav fun sum where outside the uni and she loves shopping and crossroads and outfitters and every expensive garment store on the planet =P just kidding.
So these are my ultimate rocking loving funny cute or as Reebie would put HAWTgirl friends. And life without them now I can’t imagine which brings me back to my stomachache… = (
Like I told u all that I usually hav this kinda ache when ive done something I shouldn’t hav done. So here goes…
Lately in uni I have been spending a lot of tym wid Reebie and yes ive been enjoying them and doing all the girly stuff, having crushes, using far sightedness to find them gossiping hanging out and to everyone’s surprise studying and to a much greater surprise teaching!!! (poor student) And I am doing all of it with Reebie.
And now ive just got home frm college well actually a pizza joint (with Reebie yet again) and I started having this ache... it started from the abdominal part then it came towards the thorax and as I realized my foolishness it has reached my heart and my brain and finally im letting it out.
Ive JUST realized that IM BEING A BAD BAD FRIEND *screams in a dissapointed voice*. Im not spending good time with the rest of my lovely janu friends, I miss methionine’s overeating, sulphur’s cute remarks, bromine’s red cheeks and Hb’s aunti-ness…
Im unintentionally ignoring them, not being in their company even when they are 6 steps away, im so angry wid me. If I would hav been in their place I would have created mayhems and havocs. And my sweet friends are so sweet that they haven’t even complained. =( I feel guilty and blameworthy.
I deserve a slap and a kick and a scolding from all of them. Not that I regret spending time with Reebie but I feel that we should have all been together. I remember the 15 minutes I spent with all of them today. They were the best moments of the entire day. Methionine was high today and she made me laugh so much that I was tossing myself left and right at 180 degrees. (I usually do that don’t think im mad)
And then at lunch, I kept thinking about them and missing my group. Imagining Methionine forcing down pizza slices even though she hates pizza. Reebie exclaiming that cheese would make her gain weight. Sulphur asking me, “ye pizza kitnay rupees ka hai?”Bromine expecting a scolding from her mom. And Hb wanting to get up and change that boring music.
It would hav been MUCH more fun. I miss them. I’ll surely apologize and tell them that I really don’t want to be without them. I don’t want to me nomad like that guy. I don’t want to repeat the thing the other friend did to us. I don’t want to betray them. I dun want to lose them.
Its said that to hav a gud friend... you hav to be one.
I need to give them a BIG HUG and tell them we will always be together. I hope it’s no too late.
Today while on my way to college I saw a huge poster of a new movie sequel which just released… Fast and Furious… I really love da previous 3 parts especially the second one… dat movie developed my interest in cars… not just cars, super cars… Ferraris, Porsche, Lamborghinis, Aston Martins and yeah BMWs… dis interest was also developed cz of ma bro’s never ending conversations of them, to which first I gave a deaf ear to =P, but later I really started taking interest… as a result of which today im a BIG FAN of formula 1 racing… and proudly support Hamilton of Mclaren Mercedes (current world champ =] ) and some other good drivers tooo..
Neways… while driving past that cinema I started thinking over the fastness, furiousness and …. The speed of my life… my time.
It was like some sci-fi movie bit in which I froze and everything around me accelerated at full speed… I thought that where all the time had flew by?? I mean few months back I was preparing for ma first semesters like a crazy nerd… learning the lower limb, stupid biochemistry and pathetic physiology (yukh!)… then before that my first day at my med school… the day THE CALL came that I had finally succeeded in getting a seat at this med school… the crowded suffocating day at expo where its entry test had been…
But still these days could be counted… what bout those days when I took my first step? Or the day I had spoken my first words… I dunno whether dey were mama or papa or some song I had sung… Or my first day of school… Or my first birthday… why did it all went away so soon?? Had I made the most of all the time which is no longer with me now?
I really want a time machine and go back and see all these moments… see what was I wearing at those times… I hope I didn’t to too much of make up … how I was like a baby, was I always crying…or laughing or noisy… or attention seeker… hehehehe… I do hope I wasn’t the last one or a cry baby… (Aiiwaiin aiiwaiin type). Was I nice to my friends… were dey nice to me… did I sing songs and dance when I was alone like I do now… did I study enough for my exams… what were my secrets, my dreams and my fears…??
Now that im thinking about it the speed of time is scaring me… its too fast…I don’t even like sitting with a rash driver and the speed time is moving is extremely fast… I mean its morning noon and night then morning noon and night again, I wake up, eat, sleep and then wake up, eat and sleep again… its all passing so quickly =( and look at me im the one who sometimes wish that it passes quickly… stupid me!!
Where were you, when everything was falling apart.
All my days were spent by the telephone that never rang
And all I needed was a call that never came
To the corner of 1st and Amistad
Lost and insecure, you found me, you found me
Lying on the floor, surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait? Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late, you found me, you found me.
Writing ma second post and m completely taken over by dis song by the fray… I can’t really relate to da song because m still alive…
…but wat I can understand frm da words da vocalist who is so beautifully singing is his life was taken away frm him when he needed it da most… he really didn’t wanted to die at dat point of his life… n nw he his suffering so much… he really wants to be wid his beloved… =( but he cant…
Sometimes how helpless u can be… like u really want sumthn n u cant … u just cant… it gets so frustrating… and annoying…but still u cant do anything…
At such times of sadness depression anger frustration u need a shoulder of sumone u blindly trust… u love… u adore… u can rely on completely and trust wid Ur deepest secrets… deepest of yourself…
And wat if u can’t find dat person… wat if no one of dat sort exists within Ur life… and even if da person does exist … wat if you cant reach him or her at dat time… then wat??
Talking about losing life when u did not want it to finish, I remembered a novel Rindy gave me to read… Marian Keyes’s “Anybody Out There”. It was really nice but it left me depressed… I never want anybody to hav dat kind of experience in life… I mean ill never want to go on with my life if sum1 I love so dearly leaves me… but yet…
But in the end everyone ends up alone
Losing her, the only one who's ever known
Who I am, who I'm not and who I wanna to be
No way to know how long she will be next to me
……
Until next time… take care of yourself and all your loved ones…make da most of ur moments… who knows if tomorrow never comes…
Hey… crimson coral ( a vampire name Rindy gave me) here…im just back Frm College and I had lunch… college makes me think of da new friends ive made there… I thnk I can call them friends by nw... I mean I do hav dere cell numbers in ma cell… if dats da definition of frnshp nowadays… tyms like dese I dunno or I rather put it dis way dat im unaware wat really friendship is but still im very demanding and I expect a lot… I know I know it’s not a good thing to do… but I really can’t help it... =( =(
Neways I went for hotel campaign today wid sum frenz (yeah dey are ^_^) including reebz n dan... none of da hotels did promise properly dat dey would donate cakes free of cost…a hard headed lady in one of da leading five star was rude beyond my xpectations… wish I would hav fired her back… or Reebz would hav done dat even more properly...she’s so good at it =P
Thanks to a classmate we enjoyed cold beverages... n I had a theory about Pinacolada’s origin on name... which was quite hilarious…n da story Dan made out of it was even cooler… I suggested dat Pinacolada meant “pinay-ko-lado (bring something to drink as in Urdu language)” =P da story by dan was da name was actually give by tired farmer who after a hard days work came home and asked his wife to give him sumthn to drink…n thus da wife rushed got a coconut and a pineapple n WALA… Pinacolada!! (I do hope u found it funny as much as v did... well I dun care if u don’t cz v had one MEMORABLE moment)
Mosquitoes… I hate mosquitoes … dey bite me every where… I wouldn’t mind if it was a vampire who drank ma blood… I do love vampires… n I hope to find my vampire someday… *fingers crossed* … it’s getting so hot dese days… JB actually started using his a/c long ago… n im thinking k its high tym I start using it too or else… da mosquitoes will leave no blood for ma vampire to drink out of me n convert me into one. =P
Missed Bromine, Rindy and Maiyan at uni 2day… Missed da yummy karahee tooo… I hope dose ppl get tummy aches CZ dey ate it widout me...
Well m listening to imran khan’s bhangra kind of song called Ni nachleh… it’s a damn hawt song … “chakday to saray ghum…mehbooba meri ban…sar kuch bhul k to saday naal nach ley….ni nachleh” *dancing*
I think I should better get some sleep… take care!! Shee ya!!
Hey people... something bad happened to my old blog... u here i go again makin a new one... im posting sum of my older posts first cz they r so special to me cz they were da first ones... i hope u Like Adore Enjoy and Love my blog... and keep praying nuthn happens to this one!! warna ill b v v v v v upset!!
