Pissed....

This is sumthing u all may hav experienced. And as im going through it now I cant contain it in me any longer. And since this is the only place I can let it out… well that’s what im doin.

The thing is im hating my life rite now. Its like when im pissed or sad or furious I feel rotten inside. Yeah like rotten tomatoes or bread with fungus and wild mushrooms, more like a swamp. Rindy and dum dum tried their best to help me out…. But im just so pissed.

U know being furious is not the hard part, the hard part is that u can’t let it out. When u hav to keep that smiling face so others who are not responsible for your rotten-ness dun feel bad.

And when the “reasons for the rotten-ness” cum in front of you… the way they act smart and innocent…. I just want to strangle them to death.



Yeah smiling on the outside…. Rotten on the inside. Im sure ur familiar with this feeling. Face book was so right when it told me today that the picture of my mind is actually a lala land but right now my lala land is being attacked by zombies. And they are making me feel like a zombie too… lifeless scary hopeless and angry.

If I hav to rate my anger and mood on a scale of 1 to 10, 10 being happy… then ill be at -ve100. I just want you to know how m feeling.

My blog is so unlucky nowadays… its getting all the sad posts. My once upon a time happy bloggie is now so much like a zombie bloggie… incase ur wondering why are all the zombies cuming from them let me tell you that the only thing which kept me bz today was this game called plants and zombies. Its so addictive. Do surf and find it… Rindy dun worry ill give it to you on my USB… u’ll simply love it. =)

Neways dads calling, I better go and ask him whats up… I hardly gave time to anyone today… well there was no one to give time to… haha.

I hope I make my blog happy again soon… =S

SpEEd FrEAks Me OuT !!!

Today while on my way to college I saw a huge poster of a new movie sequel which just released… Fast and Furious… I really love da previous 3 parts especially the second one… dat movie developed my interest in cars… not just cars, super cars… Ferraris, Porsche, Lamborghinis, Aston Martins and yeah BMWs… dis interest was also developed cz of ma bro’s never ending conversations of them, to which first I gave a deaf ear to =P, but later I really started taking interest… as a result of which today im a BIG FAN of formula 1 racing… and proudly support Hamilton of Mclaren Mercedes (current world champ =] ) and some other good drivers tooo..



Neways… while driving past that cinema I started thinking over the fastness, furiousness and …. The speed of my life… my time.

It was like some sci-fi movie bit in which I froze and everything around me accelerated at full speed… I thought that where all the time had flew by?? I mean few months back I was preparing for ma first semesters like a crazy nerd… learning the lower limb, stupid biochemistry and pathetic physiology (yukh!)… then before that my first day at my med school… the day THE CALL came that I had finally succeeded in getting a seat at this med school… the crowded suffocating day at expo where its entry test had been…

But still these days could be counted… what bout those days when I took my first step? Or the day I had spoken my first words… I dunno whether dey were mama or papa or some song I had sung… Or my first day of school… Or my first birthday… why did it all went away so soon?? Had I made the most of all the time which is no longer with me now?



I really want a time machine and go back and see all these moments… see what was I wearing at those times… I hope I didn’t to too much of make up … how I was like a baby, was I always crying…or laughing or noisy… or attention seeker… hehehehe… I do hope I wasn’t the last one or a cry baby… (Aiiwaiin aiiwaiin type). Was I nice to my friends… were dey nice to me… did I sing songs and dance when I was alone like I do now… did I study enough for my exams… what were my secrets, my dreams and my fears…??



Now that im thinking about it the speed of time is scaring me… its too fast…I don’t even like sitting with a rash driver and the speed time is moving is extremely fast… I mean its morning noon and night then morning noon and night again, I wake up, eat, sleep and then wake up, eat and sleep again… its all passing so quickly =( and look at me im the one who sometimes wish that it passes quickly… stupid me!!

Until Next Time... Bye!!