Im A Provider And its True!!!

Came across this test from Sana’s Blog… and I took it… it’s so accurate… Im one of the GUARDIANS and damn right im a provider!! =)

Here is the link... check it out! http://www.humanmetrics.com/cgi-win/JTypes2.asp

Here is the result…

Your type is

ESFJ

Strength of preferences in percents

Extravert: 22

Sensing: 12

Feeling: 62

Judging: 11

You are:

• slightly expressed extravert
• slightly expressed sensing personality
• distinctively expressed feeling personality
• slightly expressed judging personality

And this makes me a PROVIDER…

Providers take it upon themselves to insure the health and welfare of those in their care, but they are also the most sociable of all the Guardians, and thus are the great nurturers of social institutions such as schools, churches, social clubs, and civic groups. Providers are very likely more than ten percent of the population and this is fortunate for the rest of us, because friendly social service is a key to their nature. Wherever they go, Providers happily give their time and energy to make sure that the needs of others are met, and that social functions are a success.

Highly cooperative themselves, Providers are skilled in maintaining teamwork among their helpers, and are also tireless in their attention to the details of furnishing goods and services. They make excellent chairpersons in charge of dances, banquets, class reunions, charity fund-raisers, and the like. They are without peer as masters of ceremonies, able to speak publicly with ease and confidence. And they are outstanding hosts or hostesses, knowing everyone by name, and seemingly aware of what everyone's been doing. Providers love to entertain, and are always concerned about the needs of their guests, wanting to make sure that all are involved and provided for.

Friendly, outgoing, neighborly - in a word, Providers are gregarious, so much so that they can become restless when isolated from people. They love to talk with others, and will often strike up a conversation with strangers and chat pleasantly about any topic that comes to mind. Friendships matter a great deal to Providers, and their conversations with friends often touch on good times from years past. Family traditions are also sacred to them, and they carefully observe birthdays and anniversaries. In addition, Providers show a delightful fascination with news of their friends and neighbors. If we wish to know what's been going on in the local community, school, or church, they're happy to fill us in on all the details.

Providers are extremely sensitive to the feelings of others, which makes them perhaps the most sympathetic of all the types, but which also leaves them somewhat self-conscious, that is, highly sensitive to what others think of them. Loving and affectionate themselves, they need to be loved in return. In fact, Providers can be crushed by personal criticism, and are happiest when given ample appreciation both for them personally and for the tireless service they give to others.

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

Hey everyone…

Nice to write again…LOVING MY BLOG! I was waiting for the right time… u know for me… there is a right time to write… in that time I feel easy and relaxed and words come to me by themselves…

These words make a traffic jam in my mind… blowing like the horns of the car… screaming “write me first!! Write me first!!” and I have to tell them “hold ur horses my lovely words ill line up and arrange and then everyone will find their right place...” so this is the way I write in the right time giving all my words a right place… =P

Well too much of the right and write… hehehe… cuming to the real purpose of my post…ummmm… what was it... oh yeah, my friends…

Well here goes!

It seems only yesterday when I entered in a med school… goin to dow was like a dream for me… and this dream nearly shattered when I missed the dow seat by just 5 seats… but then luck waved its wand and after just one week in smc… THE CALL came… telling me that I was given the Dow merit seat cz of those students who didn’t claim their seat… I could not believe my luck…

I somehow knew I was meant to be in Dow… cz xcept for the first amazing day in smc the rest of the week was just okay and I only made one good friend… Bromine… who also due to our combined prayers landed in Dow! =) (well actually my version of the story is that I kicked 2 more students out when I went there and made a place for her.. =P)

First day, I was nervous… I didn’t know anyone there and I was afraid of being ragged… myosin didn’t turn up that day my only known frnd there and I was happy and confused at the same time… as I entered the lecture hall… a chill ran down my spine… and it was basically cz of the air-conditioning =P. I recognized many faces from my college but I didn’t know them that much… then I saw a friend who always gave her inter exams with me and she introduced me to a group of girls from DHA… and there I met Hira aka dum dum diamondo the ever loving girl for the first time… then there were the twins… extremely identical and I still have problem guessing who’s who, sadia casim, Qiraata, and Sid. They welcomed me and made me feel very comfortable… =)… the thing I enjoyed the most about them was they wished Happy Birthday to everyone almost everyday even though there was no birthday… sweet…

Then the next day Myosin finally came… and then we got friends with Hb… then bromine arrived from smc… then we met Rindy by the canteen and that’s how we five became We Five!! =) later we became really good friends with Reebie!! (we six!)

Other people I met and got very close to were Jammu’s group and my Rishtaydaar!! They are amazing people… were cool and funny… =) Friends are the best part of this uni life so far… they are the only reason I want to get up every morning and get ready for… =) I have so much fun with them…

Pace… speeds…velocity… rapidity… motion… these physics terms are completely different when related to time… unstoppable un-freezable… there are so many moments I want to freeze… but I can’t… I wish I could time travel… that way I could go back in time and relive all my happy moments… =)

When in inter we had to make sentences using idioms and one of the most common was “making the most of”… well now I understand this idiom completely and I want to apply it not only in a sentence but in my remaining four years at this place… Dow…

Dow does suck when it comes to the electronic attendance, lame admin, the 90 percent attendance and the rumors of uniforms but it did gave me the bestest people to be with… my friends….

Making Lifetime Memories!!

this is one poem i wrote when i was in class 3 i guess... when the only rhymes i knew were sad bad dad etc... but this is really special to me... it was one of my first poems... may be it was the first... im not sure... neways her goes...

when i feel sad

when i feel bad

i remember my old memories

i surround myself in pleasure

like i find treasure

when i remember my old memories

there was sumthing ahead as well but i dun remember it right now... i wrote it in sum old diary but i cant find it now... ill definately post it when i do... neways it was about my memories... and the reason i remembered it today was cz im making some lovely ones now adays.

for the start... I STOPPED FAKE FROM GOING BACK!!

yeah he had a confirmed ticket for last sat... but i made him stay here for another week... it was awesum... im so happy... i would not be today if he went away dat day...

^^

went to college last week... annual dinner prep have started and v planned to do sum really hilarious and lame drama... but the idea got rejected and now rindy is asking me to do a really cute song... to sing it... (and make people run away from the hall =P) ah well.. lets c... its so damn cute... we will look like kindergarden kids singing it... but nevertheless it will be an experience of a lyftime for sure... more memories...

there are so many groups set up for diff purposes... drama, singing, awards, menu, venue, etc etc. im in the drama one... actually on the behind the cam part... Hb is acting... doing sum old hindi movie parody... i bet it will me funny...

apya's got to decide my annual dinner dress... hmm... wat else... well ill go to uni tomorrow to c hows everything going... if the city conditions are fine... =S karachi bhi na bs...

newys thats all for now..

tc

=^^=

Pissed....

This is sumthing u all may hav experienced. And as im going through it now I cant contain it in me any longer. And since this is the only place I can let it out… well that’s what im doin.

The thing is im hating my life rite now. Its like when im pissed or sad or furious I feel rotten inside. Yeah like rotten tomatoes or bread with fungus and wild mushrooms, more like a swamp. Rindy and dum dum tried their best to help me out…. But im just so pissed.

U know being furious is not the hard part, the hard part is that u can’t let it out. When u hav to keep that smiling face so others who are not responsible for your rotten-ness dun feel bad.

And when the “reasons for the rotten-ness” cum in front of you… the way they act smart and innocent…. I just want to strangle them to death.



Yeah smiling on the outside…. Rotten on the inside. Im sure ur familiar with this feeling. Face book was so right when it told me today that the picture of my mind is actually a lala land but right now my lala land is being attacked by zombies. And they are making me feel like a zombie too… lifeless scary hopeless and angry.

If I hav to rate my anger and mood on a scale of 1 to 10, 10 being happy… then ill be at -ve100. I just want you to know how m feeling.

My blog is so unlucky nowadays… its getting all the sad posts. My once upon a time happy bloggie is now so much like a zombie bloggie… incase ur wondering why are all the zombies cuming from them let me tell you that the only thing which kept me bz today was this game called plants and zombies. Its so addictive. Do surf and find it… Rindy dun worry ill give it to you on my USB… u’ll simply love it. =)

Neways dads calling, I better go and ask him whats up… I hardly gave time to anyone today… well there was no one to give time to… haha.

I hope I make my blog happy again soon… =S

My StoMachAche!!

Today I am having a stomachache… no I dun hav any gastric problem and ive not been eating any unhygienic stuff like sum days back… It’s a stomachache a I usually hav when I feel guilty… like ive done something wrong… and after a lot of thinking ive found out the reason behind it, well, actually not a lot of thinking it was obvious and im feeling terribly badly horribly sorry and im disappointed in myself.

For u awl to know wat the hell im blabbering about u first should know bout my pals, buddies and my best friends at uni.

So now I present to you my best friends.

Methionine

She is the mature one, the best part is that she’s fat =P. One of my oldest frnd from school… ive known her since I was in my first grade… and nw after all the years we are still together and hopefully will always be.

Bromine

She’s the sweet one, the best part is when she laughs her cheeks get so red and it luks so cute. I found her in a uni in which I only went for a week, we were both loners there and I wanted her to be my friend, the first time I saw her, and fortunately I became her frnd and v both got transferred to this uni where I met the rest.

HB

She’s an adorable and fun loving very much like me. The best part is that she is like a-choti-si-aunti. (u wont get that bt neway =P) V became frnds in the starting days of the new uni through Methionine as she already knew her frm college, once she was sitting alone trying to study anatomy and v called her over and she’s with us ever since.

Sulphur aka Rindy

Sulphur is the most lovable creative and innocent girl ive ever met. The best part bout her is her imagination. We found her besides the canteen… She loves to have sumthn in her mouth every moment but she’s not fat. =) I share many common things with her and u’ll get to knw soon.

Reebie

Reebie is the intelligent and the interesting one. The best part bout her is her long list of her crushes. I found her in Ma’am Naheeds class. She always wants to hav fun sum where outside the uni and she loves shopping and crossroads and outfitters and every expensive garment store on the planet =P just kidding.

So these are my ultimate rocking loving funny cute or as Reebie would put HAWT girl friends. And life without them now I can’t imagine which brings me back to my stomachache… = (

Like I told u all that I usually hav this kinda ache when ive done something I shouldn’t hav done. So here goes…

Lately in uni I have been spending a lot of tym wid Reebie and yes ive been enjoying them and doing all the girly stuff, having crushes, using far sightedness to find them gossiping hanging out and to everyone’s surprise studying and to a much greater surprise teaching!!! (poor student) And I am doing all of it with Reebie.

And now ive just got home frm college well actually a pizza joint (with Reebie yet again) and I started having this ache... it started from the abdominal part then it came towards the thorax and as I realized my foolishness it has reached my heart and my brain and finally im letting it out.

Ive JUST realized that IM BEING A BAD BAD FRIEND *screams in a dissapointed voice*. Im not spending good time with the rest of my lovely janu friends, I miss methionine’s overeating, sulphur’s cute remarks, bromine’s red cheeks and Hb’s aunti-ness…

Im unintentionally ignoring them, not being in their company even when they are 6 steps away, im so angry wid me. If I would hav been in their place I would have created mayhems and havocs. And my sweet friends are so sweet that they haven’t even complained. =( I feel guilty and blameworthy.

I deserve a slap and a kick and a scolding from all of them. Not that I regret spending time with Reebie but I feel that we should have all been together. I remember the 15 minutes I spent with all of them today. They were the best moments of the entire day. Methionine was high today and she made me laugh so much that I was tossing myself left and right at 180 degrees. (I usually do that don’t think im mad)

And then at lunch, I kept thinking about them and missing my group. Imagining Methionine forcing down pizza slices even though she hates pizza. Reebie exclaiming that cheese would make her gain weight. Sulphur asking me, “ye pizza kitnay rupees ka hai?” Bromine expecting a scolding from her mom. And Hb wanting to get up and change that boring music.

It would hav been MUCH more fun. I miss them. I’ll surely apologize and tell them that I really don’t want to be without them. I don’t want to me nomad like that guy. I don’t want to repeat the thing the other friend did to us. I don’t want to betray them. I dun want to lose them.

Its said that to hav a gud friend... you hav to be one.

I need to give them a BIG HUG and tell them we will always be together. I hope it’s no too late.