Sharing... NO WAY!! =(

All my life Ive learned heard and thought that sharing is a damn good deed and when we do it we feel really good. But to tell you the truth sharing is not my thing, I just can’t give my possessions, my things to others, I just can’t. They are mine not anyone else’s.

When I was a kid, (well now u may find it hard to believe that I am not a kid now =P) I found it very hard to lend my favorite eraser or a pencil even to my best friends. I would get them new ones instead, but I really couldn’t give those which were mine, to them. And now with age this attachment with things and now with people is getting so intense that I get worried some times… what is I loose them… that’s my greatest fear.

The thing is I fall in love with everything that’s mine even if it’s just a piece o paper. I hav very old memories hidden in my closet, papers, cards and wrappers, things I cant loose, things which are really important to me even if looks like crap to others.

Neways the reason im writing this post is that im pissed. Looks like ill hav to share sumthing permanently now, my friends. I mean im sharing them right now and I think m doing a good job but gradually and slowly all of them are meeting people they are getting more close to... Im scared. I dun wanna b alone. I won’t hav anyone and they will all leave me.

Can u imagine how m feeling right now? Imagine then, a girl who in nursery kept a hawk eye on the classmate sitting next to her who borrowed her fav pencil, now has to share people she loves so much, and she can’t even keep an eye on them. =’(

I get very rude with my friends when they talk about “others”. I just want my friends to be mine and I dun wanna stop them from being happy too. I want them to be happy, yes I do, but the thing is I DUN WANNA SHARE!!!

Im such an insecure, rude and selfish friend… and I can’t help it.

=(

I need help.

Scanning Me!!

Scanning my computer is one thing I do regularly… no matter what happens it’s the first and last thing I do when I start and finish using my laptop or my pc…

Right now, the AVG is running, it’s scanning my pc and 5 warnings have been found till now =(. I like the terms which the scanner uses… warnings, threats, heal, infections, security, cookies… (Yum Yum!)

Ever wondered what would be the results if you scan ur life… what will be the warnings and the threats, and the infections?? Sounds interesting… so here I go exploring the results if I scan my life… let me call the brand of the scanner…hmmm… ill think of a name for it later… and ill name this post by it.. =)

Well… this was the overall result…

Time of starting scan: 4:00pm

Objects Scanned: Too many to count…=P

Viruses Found:

1. Virus Eardrums: This subject is infected with this rare virus which amplifies the subject’s sound quality over a hundred times normal, unnecessarily allowing it to cause damage to others eardrums.
2. Virus Talk: The subject has genetically inherited this virus from both sides of the families to be specific Subject Phopo and Subject Anni Baji. The virus grew so strong that now it is extremely hard to control. Some refer the subject as ultra talkative and others merely are well adapted to it, so now it doesn’t bother them... that’s the way to go!! =P
3. Virus Cupid: The subject finds ways to make people fall in love with each other so that it could see happy feelings around it self, the subject loves the smell of crush and is often referred as the Helpline, cz it’s found extremely useful in such cases.
4. Virus Stomach Twists: The subject is often found roaming around in places where it will have hope to find something to fulfill its stomach requirements. Some of the usual places are near the refrigerator, a chocolate aisle of a supermarket, and the good for nothing college canteen (bt still… =P). etc.
5. Virus Laughter: The subject picks up a laugh when everyone laughs at a lame joke, and the laughter is in itself quite unique. It starts all of a sudden leaving the subject red and breathless… making the subject swing at 180 degrees and then the subject innocently inquires what the joke…was! =S

Above mentioned are only some of the viruses which were found, to know about the rest spent a week with me and let me know.

Threats:

The subject is a no less than a threat itself but some of the threats which could harm the system are as follows:

1. Xams: Every once in six months exams come a threat for the poor subject, scaring it, depressing it, making it leak salt water behind it optical lenses. The poor subject tries to concentrate but finds it very hard. Even then it faces this threat and then prays and begs for prayers.
2. Khafgi: This is the threat of which the subject is most scared of. It can’t see other subjects upset because of itself. It makes it feel guilty and gives it a stomachache. The subject has a tendency to get attach to others very quickly and it literally freaks out, to think that sumone is hurt cz of subject.

Updates required:

1. Vampirism: This feature of the subject is a bit outdated. It needs immediate updating. The updated stamina, strength and ability to overcome laziness will surely help the subject to prepare itself for the exam threat.
2. Grip: This update is required by the subject so that it can overcome its clumsiness and handle things with care and avoid expensive damage.
3. Sugharpan: This update is essential for the subject, since it’s a girl whose teenage will end next year unfortunately, so keeping with the traditions its should know the basics of cooking. The important ones include making roti and salan. =P

End of scan time: 4:46pm

*----End of scan result----*

Well that’s what my scan said… if u like to add more, don’t hesitate, post the viruses u find in me and the updates u want in me in the comment section... =)

I really had fun writing this post… I think ill do this scan once in a while from now on… do try it yourself.

Happy Scanning!!

My CraZeeEEe MooD ReCipEE!!

Well. Writing this post m having mixed feelings. Yesterday Reebie’s sis told me that a person can be in four moods.

1. Happy Happy
2. Happy Sad
3. Sad Happy
4. Sad Sad

And I can’t understand which one of them im in right now, *sigh*… so ill let u know individually about my mood in few words… and since I really enjoy watching cooking channels on teevee ill explain it to you in a chef’s manner. Wotsay?? *yay* =)

So here goes.

First you hav to take around 1 cup of red happy happy feeling *big smile* and sieve it in a strainer until the extra chunks of happy goes away and its light red… WAIT!!! *scream* DON’T throw the sieved happy in da DUST BIN!!! since we are going to need later =). Now, add 1 spoon of shocking pink lovey crush feeling *giggles*, 1 spoon of the silver groove *oh yeah*, and let’s not forget 3/4th cup of white hoppy springy feeling *jumps up and down*… Now beat the mixture while humming the tune of your fav song until its smooth glittery and PINK!! *yum*

In another bowl mix a bit liquid frustration *aarrgh* and condensed boredom *=|*. Shake. Then add a pinch of anxiety *=S* and blend it into a blender for 2 minutes. *zhoomm*

Finally mix both the mixtures and bake for 20mins. See that the top layer should me giggly golden brown. =)

For garnish: laughing strawberry chunks =D, lazy whipped cream *=$* and mischievous choco chips *evil grin*… and NOT to forget my secret ingredient the red happy chunks which v saved. =)

So dats wat m I feeling, now u can understand why I can’t fit myself in any of those four moods, cz its like I have all the moods in me and I can’t figure out which one to express when and where.

That happens to me almost every single day infact every single moment… and the mood which usually dominates depends on the person or the company im in at that moment. And since write now m alone, sitting in my purple room with da love of my life (dun get the wrong idea guys… it’s my laptop) im containing in me all these emotions…!

Listen! I think I hear my stomach grumbling and the rats in it getting ready for a marathon… which adds a new ingredient in my mood recipe.. HUNGER (lol!) and now before it dominates and turns into a big angry monster and ruins my lovely garnish I better leave and hav my lunch!! =P =D

Take care!! Tata!!

SpEEd FrEAks Me OuT !!!

Today while on my way to college I saw a huge poster of a new movie sequel which just released… Fast and Furious… I really love da previous 3 parts especially the second one… dat movie developed my interest in cars… not just cars, super cars… Ferraris, Porsche, Lamborghinis, Aston Martins and yeah BMWs… dis interest was also developed cz of ma bro’s never ending conversations of them, to which first I gave a deaf ear to =P, but later I really started taking interest… as a result of which today im a BIG FAN of formula 1 racing… and proudly support Hamilton of Mclaren Mercedes (current world champ =] ) and some other good drivers tooo..



Neways… while driving past that cinema I started thinking over the fastness, furiousness and …. The speed of my life… my time.

It was like some sci-fi movie bit in which I froze and everything around me accelerated at full speed… I thought that where all the time had flew by?? I mean few months back I was preparing for ma first semesters like a crazy nerd… learning the lower limb, stupid biochemistry and pathetic physiology (yukh!)… then before that my first day at my med school… the day THE CALL came that I had finally succeeded in getting a seat at this med school… the crowded suffocating day at expo where its entry test had been…

But still these days could be counted… what bout those days when I took my first step? Or the day I had spoken my first words… I dunno whether dey were mama or papa or some song I had sung… Or my first day of school… Or my first birthday… why did it all went away so soon?? Had I made the most of all the time which is no longer with me now?



I really want a time machine and go back and see all these moments… see what was I wearing at those times… I hope I didn’t to too much of make up … how I was like a baby, was I always crying…or laughing or noisy… or attention seeker… hehehehe… I do hope I wasn’t the last one or a cry baby… (Aiiwaiin aiiwaiin type). Was I nice to my friends… were dey nice to me… did I sing songs and dance when I was alone like I do now… did I study enough for my exams… what were my secrets, my dreams and my fears…??



Now that im thinking about it the speed of time is scaring me… its too fast…I don’t even like sitting with a rash driver and the speed time is moving is extremely fast… I mean its morning noon and night then morning noon and night again, I wake up, eat, sleep and then wake up, eat and sleep again… its all passing so quickly =( and look at me im the one who sometimes wish that it passes quickly… stupid me!!

Until Next Time... Bye!!